Escapism

I can’t shake the urge to leave. It’s always been there, quietly growing. It may lay dormant for a little while, maybe during a time where I’m preoccupied by some task or some big life event that requires a majority of my attention.  And even so, I get through certain tasks and routines in my life by envisioning and pretending I’m physically somewhere else.  The feeling is so strong that I can actually envision and feel myself having that electric mix of inspiration, curiosity, and excitement.  It’s the same feeling that engulfs your being every single day you wake in a new country/city, with everything suddenly uncovered around you & ready to explore.  Through my travels I’ve found that dropping myself in these environments, places that are unfamiliar and foreign, is exactly what is needed to answer all of my unanswered questions.

I watched a movie a little while ago & the opening title read:

“New York gives off around 90 decibels. That is the sound of a constant scream.”

I’ve grown up with NYC as my backyard all my life.  This is what I know best — the constant movement, endless traffic, the nonstop pulse that makes New York, New York.  And I’ve grown to absolutely love that about this city, and there’s truly no place like it.  I appreciate it for what it is, and it will forever be my home base.  But, I can’t help but feel the need to get away sometimes.  You have to step away sometimes, because this city’s intensity will swallow you whole if you let it.  There can be someone who lives in the same area as me but feels completely unbothered by it - but it’s probably because they stay outside of the city for the most part.  There’s a part of me that feels guilty about saying all this, but the more people from NYC that I talk to, the more I recognize that they also feel the same. 

My imagination has always been vivid, and I often slip into alternate realities as a form of escapism (but also manifestation). This has routinely helped me with visualization exercises in terms of methods of manifestation.  I can feel the emotions, hear the thoughts, even think as that future version of myself.  It’s powerful enough to give me real-time goosebumps. And also powerful enough to turn a thought into my reality, on multiple occasions.  

Mastering this skill takes countless hours alone, in your own head and body.  That can be uncomfortable to a lot of people, understandably.  However, there’s a solace in it.  To imagine the extent of how much life can offer you.  If you can dream it, why wouldn’t you be able to achieve it? I’m a big believer in the idea that God places ideas in your head & heart for a reason.  None of it is random, as there are legitimately no such thing as coincidences in life.  And if you get to that point where you are constantly imagining yourself in the same scenario redundantly, for months to years on end - in a new country, at a new job, in a new home, etc. - it’s there to send you a message rather than a simple form of escapism.  

However, it’s up to you on whether you feel it’s just a “silly thought" or something that can be tangibly manifested.  This era is about trusting in when it’s time to leave, when it’s time to level up, when it’s time to see how good it can really get.  

It’s powerful to be unstoppable.  And if you’re ever doubtful or afraid - think about who it is that is stopping you from moving forward.  Most likely, it’s yourself.  And who wants to be their own worst enemy?  No one…but sometimes it takes another person to tell it to you straight, whether you like it or not.  The overarching goal here is to create a reality of all those fantasies in your head.  They’re only dreams until you wake up one day and realize they’re not dreams anymore. 

The choice is always ours to make it our own.  

Also P.S.*: Don't let anyone else tell you SH*T about how you should live your life. Only you have access to the real answers, no matter how "well" they know you. People love giving opinions no one asked for.